We have had a rainy gray day here in Kansas. And well it suits my mood and my day just perfectly. I guess today I am no longer married, or as close as. I miss him. I went from being a child to "dating" my Tony at 15 to marrying him at 18 through 17 years of marriage to now. My heart is breaking. I hope my husband finds whatever it is that he thinks will make him happy. I on the other hand have no plans except to try and raise my children in the way they should be raised and to no hopefully find a home where we can live and that I can afford. I looked at trying to get a Rural Development Loan, and it did not work out as I do not have a work history. So that leaves me homeless with 6 kids shortly. I know God has a plan.....I am just don't know for sure what that is yet.