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Monday, August 17, 2009

Sad day

We have had a rainy gray day here in Kansas. And well it suits my mood and my day just perfectly. I guess today I am no longer married, or as close as. I miss him. I went from being a child to "dating" my Tony at 15 to marrying him at 18 through 17 years of marriage to now. My heart is breaking. I hope my husband finds whatever it is that he thinks will make him happy. I on the other hand have no plans except to try and raise my children in the way they should be raised and to no hopefully find a home where we can live and that I can afford. I looked at trying to get a Rural Development Loan, and it did not work out as I do not have a work history. So that leaves me homeless with 6 kids shortly. I know God has a plan.....I am just don't know for sure what that is yet.



redink said...

My heart hurts for you. Your pain is so real.

It was just a year ago that I went through the same thing. It still causes me great pain and confusion.
I have known my husband for 26 years...more than half my life. We had seven children, my youngest was only two when he walked out on us.
I know you cannot see yet what the Lord has for you, but know that He will be your husband and father now.
He will guard, protect and take care of all of you, just as He has done for me.
I still don't have a real answer as to why a man would build a family only to abandon us when we are most vulnerable. It is incomprehensible, but all too common now.

You are not alone. I will be praying. Stay close to those who love you and are on your side...give up on those who live for judgment. I had to do that too.

Blessings in the midst of your tears,

Marcia said...

I am so sorry that this day turned out like it did. It is hard to reckon with the purpose of all this pain is/will be to you, the children and to their father. I know God has already grown you through it and your will pass the good to the children. You are a good mother Amy, and God will bless you for it. You have been strong and faithful, even when you have felt weak. God is there right beside you lifting you and carrying you when you feel like you cannot take another step. God is your fortress and your strength!

"Be strong and of good courage, fear not, nor be afraid because the Lord your God, He goes with you, He will not fail you nor forsake you." Deut. 31:6.

Kelly Spezzano said...

peace, comfort and prayers to you! it's a scary situation but our MIGHTY LORD is you're strength.