I have so been struggling this week, yes I know I have had alot of reminders about Gods promises of being there and taking care of me and I do not doubt him. But yet here I am struggling. I received a birthday card from a dear friend today. She boosted my spirits a bit, she reminded me that people love me and care about me. Also last night I was doing my devotions and the verses for reading were as usual right what I needed to read.
Do not let your heart be troubled. Trust in God, trust also in me. Jesus comforting the disciples.
Also in my reading John 14:27
Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.
I decided tonight to turn on my playlist from my blog and just started singing and praying and then all of a sudden a wave of peace just covered me...I have not been here, in this peace all week....I have fought and struggled and cried and ached, and while I know normal reactions....I could not keep going on like this, I have been afraid to make any choices in any direction, I was fast heading toward ... fear and panic and starting to hear those nasty lies about being a complete failure again...I will not let the deciever take me there....gonna leave the music on until I head to bed and maybe even after!
Again Lord I believe fully in your promises
1 He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High
will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.
2 I will say of the LORD, "He is my refuge and my fortress,
my God, in whom I trust."