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Hi, I am me... I am a mom with a great sense of humor, a kind heart, a giving spirit, a desire to please, and enough strength to keep on going even when life knocks me down... I am me... : )

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Struggling with anxiety

I have been having some of "those" days again, sigh. Not sure why, but every so often I struggle with some days of worry. The clock is counting down. Sigh.... My husband still has not been able to find a job, and he has put in loads of applications. I have 3 weeks until all the puppies could be sold, but with the way things are I am worried about them selling. I plan to take the funds from the puppies and open a cafe/bakery/etc, LOL..... We want to be able to have a steady income that is not reliant on my husbands back, which frankly has issues. This is something I have wanted to do and the option is there, so I am praying and working toward it. I am really working at trusting God and even when this anxiety attacks happen I deal with them by praying and just trusting God. I am working on getting everything I want done in the cafe, etc, written down and to have plans. SO if y'all wouldn't mind please add me to your prayers.

Thanks a bunch
from Me

Sunday, September 28, 2008

Staynlis was in San Angelo, Texas last week.

The stage........ not sure exactly how tall but as you can see it was HUGE!!!!

Tony on drums(not his set), Craig filling in on the bass, Wade on the guitar

Josh on the guitar, Shawn on vocals, Tony on drums, and Craig on bass

Josh, Shawn, Wade, Tony

Josh and Shawn.....

Staynlis met alot of great people and had an awesome time. They were interviewed on TV as well as the radio. They enjoyed watching and hanging out with the other bands like, Cutlass, SuperChick, Stellar Kart, Day of Fire, and others. Oh, I also heard that the catered BBQ was to die for. Sorry I don't know who provided it. All in all an awesome time was held by all, LOL

My Brothers fight for your freedom and one is now safely home yeah!!!!!

Praise God my brother is home safe. I was unable to be there. However, my sister and brother-in-law, neice parents and youngest brother were there. They said he looks good and everyone was happy to be there. I am sure all of those Marines in the back of the picture as well as their families are happy as can be as well. Now we are just waiting on my other brother Chris. He is due to be home next month. Praise God again. God is good!!!

Sunday, September 21, 2008

Post a comment win a free gift

Okay, I said I was gonna have a giveaway. Yeah, I was a bit slow.

So these are the rules, post a comment on my blog about your favorite 3 things about fall, yeah I know last year I asked the same thing, but you all had such wonderful answers, that it seemed like a logical choice again. Anyway, everyone who posts a comment gets their name put into a hat, yes a real hat, LOL, and then we will draw at least 2 names. Oh, and if you happen to mention the giveaway on your own blog, you get a second entry ; ) Just be sure you let me know you mentioned it.

This will go until @ the 10Th of October. I will keep pushing this post up to stay current. Okay so that's it, pretty simple.... Oh, I'm sorry did you want to know what you might win? Well, of course you do, lol!! You can win a dozen handmade cards. The choices are this

1. a dozen cards which will include 1 each of the "major" holidays through the year and the rest filled in with blank inside cards.

2. a dozen various birthday, or a particular holiday, or a particular event cards for example a dozen Christmas, or a dozen birthday etc.......

3. there is the possibility also of you telling me what you need as in event or color etc.... Just let me know when you win and we will see what we can do

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Interesting and a God thing

Yesterday, my husband had practice with Staynlis and I went along to visit a friend in the same town. I was helping my husband take his drums into the church to set up for practice, and something very strange happened. I felt a very strong sense of heaviness in the sanctuary. This in itself is very weird as this particular church has always felt very welcoming and calming to me. The farther toward the front I got the heavier it felt.

And I am sure alot of you are thinking okay she is batty, LOL. And that's okay, I can live with that. By the time I got down to the front of the sanctuary, tears were welling. I had a physical feeling of heaviness on me. As I left to get something else and stepped outside it eased back off. When I sat down in the front row the heaviness settled on my shoulders, chest, and neck.

Okay so maybe this could sound like a heart attack, however as it went away while I was out of the church I felt that this was not the case. I sat and watched my husband set up for awhile and got the intense feeling that I should just drop to my knees and pray. However with everything I have had going on I felt so overwhelmed that I was worried that I would just lay there and weep. So I fought it as the other band members were due to show up at any moment and I left.

Did I chicken out?? Yup I did. I have a feeling God will keep at me until I give in. He is just that way not willing to let us stray to far and wanting to cleanse away the hurt, all we have to do is just lay it down. I am sure I am not the first person to run from an experience like this. I am uncomfortable with these things in front of people, and with people coming, I just could not let it happen. The time is coming and I am sure sooner rather then later.

So I go to visit the friend and then my hubby calls to have me come and pick him up. So I get down there and they are all still tearing down and getting ready to leave. I sat near the back. I just was not ready to go near the front. They visited, cleaned up, joked, and then started loading into the cars. After they were all packed up and ready to go, all of a sudden one of the guys car won't start, new car ran great right up until that moment.

They start trying to figure it out, and then discover that a battery cable is completely loose, odd. Well, by know I had to go to the bathroom. So I went back into the church they fixed it in a couple of minutes, and then they all left and my hubby was waiting for me. Right after they all left a young man pulled into the parking lot with, yup you guessed it car trouble, this was at 10:00 at night. I came out of the church right after he got there. He has been having problems with his alternator and the battery is old.

He had a charger for the car, but the charger needed charged. So my husband has him come in and they start charging the charger, and talking about the band and music. Then he says hey let me get you a CD. Well the charger is taking along time to charge and the kid needs to get all the way to Burton. So we drove him over to Walmart to get a battery for the truck. Then we drove him back and use our truck to give him light to make the repairs, get his now charged charger, and he is good to go.

How awesome is God that we were still there to help the kid out and kind of witness to him. Now I don't know if he goes to church or knows Christ. He was a nice polite kid, but you never know. At the very least we were there to show him Christ's love and compassion and to give him a Staynlis CD with some great songs on it that who knows were that could lead. God even uses those of us who are resisting sometimes. Everyone keep me and my family in prayer. We are still working toward the restaurant if it is God's will. Just keeping going unless the door closes and then we will look for that window.

Thursday, September 11, 2008

September 11, 2001 We shall never forget.

Today is a day that will forever be remembered as a horrible day in a America, however it also caused some of the finest moments in America in recent years. The way people came together and helped each other. More people flew flags, more people expressed pride in our country, more people prayed, more people became concerned about people other then themselves. People appreciated things more.

I have said before war sucks, but we are helping our neighbors as we should. I am proud of both my brothers. My brothers that signed up after the war started, my brothers who are willing to do what needs done. I am also thrilled to be able to say that my brother David will be home from Iraq this next weekend, Praise God, and my brother Christopher will be headed home from Iraq in a month, Praise God again. I am so proud of our military. We all should be proud of our military.

Thank God again for our Military!!! Thank God for the USA!!! THANK YOU GOD!!!! God Bless America and God Bless our Military. Please stop and remember today what we realized back in 2001, what was important. We forget too soon it seems sometimes.

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

New puppy pics and info

If you want to see some darling updated pictures of the new puppies please visit Amore Schnauzers puppy page, they are way too cute!! We have a variety thats for sure. Please check it out.

Fall is in the air

Fall sure feels like it is here. We have been blessed with unseasonably cool weather here in Kansas. It is awesome. We turned the air conditioner off a few weeks ago and threw the windows open. Although we have had to close them at night as it has gotten down right chilly. It always makes me think of apple pies and thanksgiving and carving pumpkins. I made apple cake yesterday. MMMMM The spice appley sweetness with the cream cheese frosting. I gave a big cake away to the neighbors, and made us a one layer version. Less for us to have to eat, LOL ; ) Although the kids and hubby would have been perfectly content to eat a huge two layer cake. My layers tend to be thicker then some others.

We went and looked at the building that I am hoping to make into a cafe/tearoom/gift shop... It has lots of potential. And the work needed to get it up and running is minimal. I just have to be patient while I come up with the funds. I have pondered having my own bake sale, LOL. Hmmmmmmm I keep praying for things to work out. This would be something my family and I can run together and also my husband could keep from working factory work anymore, which frankly is killing his back. Anyway, all y'all keep your fingers and toes crossed, LOL.

I am feeling like having a giveaway. I will post the information later this week. After I figure out the prize and what to do.


Thursday, September 4, 2008

She's Back

I just wanted to share my excitement!!!! The Kansas Milkmaid is blogging again and reading her thoughts is just as much a joy now as it was before. She has always been so insightful even during her trials. Christina's generosity and kindness and godliness have always shown through and are there today. She is doing well and I am so thrilled that she is back and proud to call her a friend. I wish she still lived closer, but I am glad that she and the kiddos have made a good fresh start. I have put a link over in the list again for Christina's blog.

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

Do you have days when this is how you feel one way or another. I mean I know I have looked at friends and felt this way. Of course I can pray for them, as I am not a cat, but truly this is how it looks to me sometimes. Then so often I feel like the cat stuck in the sleeve, cause so often people just don't know what to say. HAHAHAH Oh well God is good and thankfully He knows exactly how to help us.
Have a good week.