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Monday, September 24, 2007

The road to Sickville and Back

Okay I know we all have been there. Sickville. An awful place, full of germs and coughing and well lots of unpleasant things. Have you noticed that the trip in is fast, you hardly know your going there till wow look I'm here in Sickville. Yeah!!!! So you hang around seeing the sights Coughing Corner, Headache Lane, and Misery Drive. You stop to visit the pharmacy of course. Come out with 2 prescriptions, plus Tylenol and Advil. Whooohoooooo I mean who does not love to shop will on a trip. And think you have all the lovely script bottles for souvenirs. You could store oh I don't know medicine in them........ SO anyway you see a sign that says this way to WELL. Your like oh thank you God, I found the way out. So you turn off and head out. Only to discover that the road out of Sickville is not like the 4 lane highway it was to get in. It is a little, narrow, filled with blind curves, dirt road barely 2 lane. You have to drive through places such as Wheezing Falls, and Heaving Point. You have detours through, ER CITY, yeah were you experience the thrill of a breathing treatment and shots of epinephrine. And then maybe just then maybe after the another stop at the Pharmacy for some more souvenir shopping of 3 more prescriptions, you discover that the bottle of antibiotics has a map on it. One that shows the way to Well. So I am hoping that if I follow this map I will soon be home in Well again. Then I shall post on better things. I promise.


Thursday, September 20, 2007

I am alive

I think I am turning the corner toward feeling more healthy!!!! I have finally been able to sleep for a couple of hours. Otherwise it has been cough doze for 10 min cough cough cough ....... doze for a few cough COUGH COUGH COUGH..... anyway you get the idea. After more then a week of being sick, I feel ucky, LOL. Big fat surprise right?? I have not been able to eat much through all this and so have been feeling a bit weak from that. However I do believe today after finally sleeping I am getting a bit better. I did have to make a trip to the ER on Monday, where they prescribed a inhaler and prednisone. These seem to be helping. I am going to go rest for a bit more now, and then as soon as the fuzzies clear from my brain, I will be blogging again. I plan to have updates to all the pages, and there is a fall tea party in the works for October....... Should be fun.

Friday, September 14, 2007

Oh my gosh I feel soooooo bad bad bad. I am sick sick sick. I have had fevers today that gave me the shakes and shiver sooo
bad, I could not stop my teeth from chattering. I have a major headache and that is with 3 ibuprofin me every 6 hours. SIGH........................My body aches and so does my throat. I downed a couple of room temp pepsi's which helped a hair, but when you coughing up ucky stuff it just keeps irritating the throat. I am so tired I just soaked in a hot shower to help get rid
of the shakes, I know not the best idea, but I was soooooo cold. I am guzzling orange juice thanks to
the lovely man who brought us a bunch there fore I did not need to send someone after it, along with bunches of soup he bought. I so apprciate this gentleman. A friend just brought over milk and eggs and yesterday a friend brought more veggies. We are so blessed. It seems my hubby has a new better job. I drove him to the interview about 15 min from here, today they sent him for his UA and are running the background check as we speak. Yeah!!!!!! In case your wondering about why I drove
him even sick as a dog, I drive better then him when he is tired and after last nights hideous shift, he fell and got hurt, everything is soaking wet, and has a hard time closing his hands and he was so way tired, anyway
he starts to fall asleep when he is weary and sore. So better my sick self drive then he wreck the vehicle and hurt himself. Anyway please oh please oh please pray for me.

Thursday, September 13, 2007

God is good

God is good all the time

God is good all the time
He put a song of praise in this heart of mine
God is good all the time
Through the darkest night, His light will shine
God is good, God is good all the time

If you're walking through the valley
And there are shadows all around
Do not fear, He will guide you
He will keep you safe and sound
'Cause He's promised to never leave you
Nor forsake you and His Word is true


We were sinners - so unworthy
Still for us He chose to die
Filled us with His Holy Spirit
Now we can stand and testify
That His love is everlasting
And His mercies - they will never end

God is sooo good all the time. After all my struggles early last week and prior. I was able to give it all up and let God take it back and just rest in the peace that God has never dropped us on our faces, why on earth would he start now?? He wouldn't I know it. I have been at peace since later last week and have been feeling better.

Today began nice and sunny and was a wonderful day all day today.

This morning, my husband was given a job. He is working as we speak. Praise God, Glory, Hallelujiha!!!!!!!!

Also this morning. I recieved the best haircut since the one I had at the end of my 8th grade year. I AM NOT KIDDING People have butchered and hacked at my hair since 1988. And not the same person, I tried again and again. I went years without cutting my hair as I could not stand the agony any more, plus it seemed such a waste when they all sucked. But today I am the proud and very happy owner of a newly styled head of hair!!!!! Thank you Dawnelle. She blessed me with a free haircut this morning and she is awesome.

I went out and visited with the Ks Milkmaid today. She is doing well. A bit weary after yesterdays long long day of questioning. Heck I was weary. 9:00 till 4 :30 makes for a long day of sitting on a bench. OUCH!!! Secondly the grouchy looks from some people get a bit wearing after while, but hey if they want to be cranky that is their choice. I choose to be nice and polite. I smile at everyone, and you know I am not sure they like it, LOL. But anyway they all seemed good.

While I was out there we recieved another major blessing. There is an awesome gentleman out there somewhere who has heard of my families struggles and generously sent over tons of food laundry soap and also loads of pullups that we need for one of our sons, with a friend of mine. So far he as chosen to remain anonymous. My freezer, fridge, and cupboards are overflowing, with wonderful good food. What a blessing this man has been to us. He has also offered further assistance if we should need it. THANK YOU WHOMEVER YOU ARE, THERE ARE INDEED ANGELS HERE ON EARTH.

God has blessed us into overflowing as he promises he well. I know we all know this but how awesome a reminder it is

The Lord is my Shepherd; I shall not want.
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures:
He leadeth me beside the still waters.
He restoreth my soul:
He leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for His name' sake.

Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil: For thou art with me;
Thy rod and thy staff, they comfort me.
Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies;
Thou annointest my head with oil; My cup runneth over.

Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the House of the Lord forever.

-- KJV

The Lord is my shepherd I shall not want

yes indeed he has supplied us with so much we shall not want 7 different kinds of cereal for the kids, 7 a freezer full of meat, cupboards full of veggies and pasta and even some cookies and fruti roll ups

he maketh me lie down in green pastures and leads me beside still waters
green pastures = goodness and lushness, right now I feel as if we are in green pastures

He restoreth my soul
I do indeed feel restored, as I was so low last week and then all those blessings helped to remind me exactly who has my life in his hands and I do indeed feel restored

Yea though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death I will fear no evil for thou art with me
I can so relate to this one, I felt as if my life was ending, I felt so exposed and at risk, I feel safe and secure now, we still have some axes hanging, but God will not let them fall, he is with me no one can be against me

The rod and the staff they comfort me
you know a staff was made with a crock on the end to help return the sheep to saftey to be where they are suppossed to be and how great is that??? Some would see these things as a punishment or confinement, but they are to keep us safe, and God realed us back in and I know we are secure with him,

Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies
there are some people who have attacked and accused us through all this and you know God has blessed us and I believe that those will see that

Thou annointest my head with oil, my cup runneth over
oh indeed it does, I fill so full to overflowing, and actually have made further strides in understanding God and his blessings through all this. I do indeed feel anointed

Surely Goodness and mercy will follow me all the days of my life and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.
I surely want to claim this. I hope for mercy all the days of my life for surely none deserve it, thats why it is mercy and goodness. And by being saved and belonging to God, I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever

When those trials come again, and I am sure they will we need to remember this and not allow ourselves to be so beat down. I know God understand that we are human and we will get low, we just need to remember Gods goodness and mercy will be ther forever and pull ourselves back up give our problems to God and have faith.

God will never leave us nor forsake us
Thank you God

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

September 11th

I am so proud of our service men and women. Here are pictures of my two Marines!!! I love you Guys!!

Today is a day that will forever be remembered as a horrible day in a America, however it also caused some of the finest moments in America in recent years. The way people came together and helped each other. More people flew flags, more people expressed pride in our country, more people prayed, more people became concerned about people other then themselves. People appreciated things more. I pray that this war can end soon.
I have said before war sucks, but we are helping our neghibors as we should. I am praying especially hard now as one of my brothers shown up above is scheduled to be shipped over seas in March. I am proud of both my brothers. My brothers that signed up after the war started, my brothers who are willing to do what needs done. We all should be proud of our military. And on another note I am deeply ashamed of those people who claim to be christian who picket at the funerals of our fallen military men and women. But again, I am very proud of those men and women who ride in the Patriot Gaurd. Those wonderful people that make a wall between the families, and those that are being nasty. SO God bless those who are helping honor our military families this way.

Thank God again for our Military!!! Thank God for the USA!!! THANK YOU GOD!!!! God Bless AMerica and God Bless our Military


There is a reason behind the war we are currently in. Just in case we have forgotten. Thanks Wikipedia for the facts here.

2,974 people died as an immediate result of the attacks, and the death of at least one person from lung disease was ruled by a medical examiner to be a result of exposure to WTC dust.[6] Another 24 people are missing and presumed dead. The victims were predominantly civilians. I DID NOT INCLUDE THOSE WHO CAUSED THIS IN THE NUMBERS.

Four commercial airliners were hijacked en route to California from Logan International, Dulles International, and Newark airports. Each of the airliners had a jet fuel capacity of nearly 24,000 U.S. gallons (91,000 liters).[7] Two of the airliners were flown into the World Trade Center, one each into the North and South towers, one was flown into the Pentagon, and the fourth crashed near Shanksville, Pennsylvania.

American Airlines Flight 11, a Boeing 767-200 wide-body aircraft, crashed into the northern side of the North Tower of the World Trade Center (WTC) at 8:46:30 a.m. local time (Eastern Daylight Time, 12:46:30 UTC), hitting at the 94-98th floors.

United Airlines Flight 175, a Boeing 767-200, crashed into the 78-84th floors of the South Tower at 9:02:59 a.m. local time (13:02:59 UTC), an event covered live by television broadcasters and amateur filmers from around the world who had their cameras trained on the buildings after the earlier crash.

American Airlines Flight 77, a Boeing 757-200, crashed into the Pentagon at 9:37:46 a.m. local time (13:37:46 UTC).

United Airlines Flight 93, a Boeing 757-200, crashed in a field in southwest Pennsylvania just outside of Shanksville, about 150 miles (240 km) northwest of Washington, D.C., at 10:03:11 a.m. local time (14:03:11 UTC). The crash in Pennsylvania resulted from the passengers of the airliner attempting to regain control from the hijackers.

Three buildings in the World Trade Center Complex collapsed due to structural failure on the day of the attack. The south tower (2 WTC) fell at approximately 9:59 a.m., after burning for 56 minutes in a fire caused by the impact of United Airlines Flight 175, and the north tower (1 WTC) collapsed at 10:28 a.m., after burning for approximately 102 minutes. A third building, 7 World Trade Center (7 WTC) collapsed at 5:20 p.m., after being heavily damaged by debris from the Twin Towers when they fell.

Sunday, September 9, 2007

Prayer for Ks Milkmaid

If you could all remember to pray for Christina, as she has a long day of court on Tuesday. And after witnessing the crummy behaviour of the defense attorney during the last one I am sure we will all be in for so much more fun. SIGH.............. Oh well Christinas oldest son did awesome. He kept his cool did not get flustered and was respectful even though the defense was not!!! Please pray for strength for Christina!!! Tuesday promises to be soooo long.


Friday, September 7, 2007

More Angels

I am so blessed. I have been wondering how to stretch what we have to make it last to fill what we need.... I have been blessed by a number of people. I had a friend bring me a whole box or produce, lovely homegrown tomatoes, cucumbers, zucchini and squash. One friend also sent me home with a couple of bags of things last week after I stopped by to visit.

Another friend brought me some more fresh produce zucchini and squash she also brought me 4 complete meals, Chicken Curry and Chicken Cordon Bleu as an example, all ready to pop in the oven or crock pot as well as some ready to bake bread. She came bake today with two bags of things from her Mom's church. Her mom had mentioned our ummm troubles and they wanted to help. She also told me that the gentleman who gave her the complete meals, Miraculous Meals, had some more for us.

I AM SO THANKFUL. This makes the money we do have stretch so much further!!!!Thank you

God so often uses people some we don't even know to bless us. I had been feeling very weary, but this week God has used these small things to remind us that he is still here and that he cares.

Thank you everyone.

His Joy Comes In The Morning

Despite all my doom and gloom a few days ago, there have been some nice blessings.

I spent yesterday de-stressing with a friend, her family took me out to dinner, we made some cards, had some fun and fellowship and ate Nerds, LOL. For those who do not know what Nerds are, they are a small tangy sweet crunchy candy. NERDS are addictive, LOL. You can't eat just one of course why would you want to??? But I came home much more relaxed and well happy. Thank you Miss Marcia and Denny. Thank you God for such a nice friends who are so willing to be a blessing..

I wanted to get a pool at the beginning of summer for my little kids. Well they sold out locally of the small inexpensive ones really fast. SO oh well we can live without a pool. Well last weekend, someone was giving away a Little Tykes Tugboat pool/sandbox. Sooo cool my kiddos have something that can be used for more then just the hot days of summer, and it is something I would rather have had anyway. So yes it may not have been when I wanted it, but God had a plan and provided something even better a bit down the road. And for FREE!!!!!

Also this week we went to put some applications in near my mom, and so we stopped and had dinner and took her their kitten. It was alot of fun. And my mother gave my birthday present. Mary Jane's Idea Book and Cook Book. I had been wanting one for a while. But with the cost of the book there was no way. SO I waited a bit and was soooo blessed. Thank you Mom!!! Again God knew...

Due to our struggles last week I could not afford to go and purchase milk. We being the dear wonderful person and friend that she is. Christina, the Kansas Milkmaid, brought me in some milk and said she wanted to make sure we had it!!! Thank you God for such a wonderful sweet woman to be a friend.

I am believing that this house being sold will actually be a blessing in disguise. God knows what we need and where we would like to be. I am going to trust in him to see me through. He has never dropped my family, and I KNOW he never will.

Now I am not saying that because I got to go and do things and people gave me things, I am there for happy. What I am saying is God knew I was stressed out and I mean way way out there. I was frustrated, and angry and hurt. God also knows my heart and who I am. God blessed, my family and I this week in so many ways. SO even though I had some dark and sorrowful nights, HIS JOY has indeed come with the morning. I rose thinking of this song, and singing.

Thank you God

I'm Trading My Sorrows
I'm trading my sorrows, I'm trading my shame;
I'm laying them down for the joy of the Lord.
I'm trading my sickness, I'm trading my pain;
I'm laying them down for the joy of the Lord.
We say yes, Lord, yes, Lord,
yes, yes, Lord,
yes, Lord, yes, Lord, yes, yes, Lord,
yes, Lord, yes, Lord, yes, yes, Lord. Amen.
I am pressed but not crushed,
persecuted, not abandoned,
struck down but not destroyed.
I am blessed beyond the curse,
for His promise will endure,
that His joy is gonna be my strength.
Though the sorrow may last for the night,
his joy comes with the morning. (to Verse)

No matter what happens. It is not forever. Gods promises and joy can and will be my strength.

Have and awesome weekend.

Wednesday, September 5, 2007

Thoughts on yesterday

As people might be able to tell, I AM FRUSTRATED!!!! LOL Okay I am more then frustrated frankly yesterday I was down right mad. I am someone who does not usually express my anger to those who make me mad. The people who have uspet me do not know it, as I was brought up to be a polite person and in most cases I am. I did vent on here as I always feel better to vent, and with my husbands already frustration filled life, I use my blog to vent!!

When your already struggling and people who you think might be the ones to help you, or encourage you, actually in reality don't. Some become people who hinder you, or perhaps they frustrate you, or some actualy even cause you more problems then you had to begin with. Some times when going through things other people will go even further and completely abandon you leaving high and dry.

That can hurt when you really expected them to be there for you. While I am struggling with this, I have been so blessed to have people tell me they will pray for me. There are a number who offer useful advice, unlike the stuff that led to yesterdays obvious frustrations. And God of course is there.....

And the LORD, He is the One who goes before you. He will be with you, He will
not leave you nor forsake you; do not fear nor be dismayed.” (Deuteronomy 31:8)

I still struggle with not having fear or being dismayed, LOL!!! I am working on it, I am also claiming that today will be a better day!!!

I remember a song that is very short yet to the point, a peppy upbeat sort of song. I need to keep this one going today!!!

Be Bold Be Strong

Be bold, be strong
For the Lord your God is with you
Be bold, be strong
For the Lord your God is with you
I am not afraid
I am not dismayed
Because I'm walking in faith and victory
Come on and walk in faith and victory
For the Lord your God is with you

I hope everyone has an awesome day.

Tuesday, September 4, 2007

Doing what your employer says is a good idea and other fun myths

Myth Number One

BY FOLLOWING THE RULES OF YOUR EMPLOYER YOU WILL KEEP YOUR JOB!! Well lets just talk about that theory... A good one in principle... is it true??? Ummmm not really. This employer a major company says to you, if you have strep do not come in to work you can not be here with something contagious like that!!! Okay makes sense.... yeah so you don't go and then from someone else who comes in with strep you catch it again, and have to go the er cause you have no insurance, and you call said job and they say we are letting you go due to attendance. Wow I am SOOOOOOOOOOOO glad we listened to my employer and stayed home those days we were told to!!!!

Myth Number Two

NO ONE GETS UNEMPLOYMENT AFTER WORKING FOR A TEMP AGENCY Not true!!! Yes, you can indeed get unemployment when fired from a temp agency because you had strep throat. As this particular temp agency hired for no one but that company, they had no other jobs to offer. So we received unemployment. Yeah... of course this one WILL come back to bite you in the butt later......

Myth Number Three

IF YOU WANT A JOB IN THIS TOWN YOU CAN HAVE ONE BY NIGHTFALL!!. Seriously NOT TRUE, you can't and this is where Myth number two comes into play, after receiving the unemployment needed to be able to ummm have things such as gas for cooking and electricity and water, no temp agency will give you a job, not one no matter how much experience you have for the job. Does not matter that you were a hard worker and most of your previous employers give you glowing references, they will not give you a job when prospective jobs call them they will sabotage you. The will tell employers not to hire you, they will then lie to you and say oh they never called!! Never mind that your friend works there and asked and were informed that the agency said not to hire you!!! Or they will tell you ummmm you have to have experience in that job, a little nothing job just something to pay for electricity!!! Again a lie as you have another friend who works there and they talk to the person who does the hiring and he says ummm not true. This is were Myth number 4 comes into play!!

Myth Number Four

EMPLOYMENT AGENCIES HELP YOU FIND A JOB!!! So you go to job service centers in towns up to 40 minutes away looking for a job. You spend 2 hours filling out paperwork, you wait and call back they tell you we have not heard anything. Then finally you call back and ask about this in more detail, and they can find no evidence that you were ever there. They say they have nothing on you!! WHAT?????? So you hang up but call back to ask what happened and finally someone finds it stuffed into the back of a drawer and nothing was ever passed on to ANY jobs. Then finally one has a job for you, you got it, yeah you get home to recheck the time and they say ummmm well they just called they need no one else. Myth number five.......

Myth Number Five

THE PEOPLE AT THE LOCAL AGENCIES ARE FILLED WITH WISDOM AND KNOWLEDGE!!!! NO THEY ARE NOT!!!!! I called to inform them that we have no more unemployment after this week!! We have a son who receives insurance through them as he is disabled, and we need to see about getting other help for this month as we have no more money. Well get a letter from unemployment and change it for next month, tough luck for help this month. Then I am asked about if we have jobs and I said no we are sure trying and I get the Number 1 myth repeated to me, well you can have a job in this town if you want one. And she pipes up McDonald's is hiring... UMMMM NO IT IS NOT THE ARE CLOSING AND TEARING IT DOWN AND REBUILDING IT.

I am sick to death of people who have jobs at the these agencies and other places making big fat judgements about me and my family and acting like we are just not trying. Yeah cause I mean it is my biggest desire to be homeless with 6 children. There is nothing we can get rid of to save money. We do not have extras. We have one vehicle, we have no cable TV, we have a 6 year old computer, and a teeny tiny TV, and a cheap DVD player, we have a falling apart dining set with only 1 chair left of the original and we are using plastic lawn chairs which were left here by the former person, cause we cant afford anything else. Oh yes I guess we will be saving money here soon as if we can't pay the electricity and gas they will shut it off, but then if we did not have the money to pay for it then we would not have it to save. And now the house we are living in has been put up for sale and we have to move. THIS IS NOT DUE to us not paying the rent we may have been slow but we have paid most of it. JUST THOUGHT I WOULD MENTION THAT SHOULD ANY OF THOSE PEOPLE FROM THE ABOVE MENTIONED PLACES READ THIS!! No one wants to rent to us. No one wants 6 kids in any of their houses. Trust me I have asked. Not that we have the money to move anywhere anyway.

If we could manage to buy a large travel trailer like for camping I do have a dear friend, YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE THANK YOU YOU ARE AMAZING, who has graciously offered to let us live on their property out in the country, which is amazing and so sweet and you know we could do that. We would be away from the city which is what we want, but we HAVE NO money to be able to purchase said travel trailer. Ad their house is just not big enough for us, as well. Seriously considering a large tent at this point. It may be that is what happens. I don't know.